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I can EAT. I can take more than a few bites at a time and not feel full. I am not afraid of eating because I know now it won't hurt me 20 minutes later. I almost cried when I said good bye to my surgeon yesterday because I know that this is the start to get me back down the path of recovery. I am very grateful to have finally gotten competent doctors. Now - to put back on weight so I can feel better and look better. And knowing that my pancreas and liver are okay makes me feel very relieved as well.
In other news, I have briefly mentioned teaming up with an ebm/industrial artist in the past on a collaboration. Well, I got the news last week that he's accepted my contract and we are a go! I can't reveal who it is yet to the public, or much about it, but this is something I've wanted to do for years and it's finally accomplished. And it's got furries in it!
Commissions will resume when I can sit up for longer periods of time. I've got 4 holes in my abdomen that shouldn't take too long to heal. Thank you all for your patience and support, it's really been appreciated during this time. I hope those of you at Anthrocon are having fun. I'm really missing it. Those of you who kept me occupied while I was in the hospital with text messages and emails and all that - thank you, I needed that.
Once these commissions are cleared through, I'll take on more to save to see
again soon. I miss that guy, ya know. 
Optimism 
many blessings to your health and recovery!
2 years down the road, I feel great. But I have a lot of um... bathroom problems that are a little embarrassing to talk about! But a little piece of advice, you will find out very, VERY quickly what your body doesn't like eating more (especially fried and high processed foods!) and those special K fiber bars will be your friend forever xD